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Thursday, April 12, 2007

i'm a lazy blogger.. . =) wonder how xiaxue manage to make blogging her occupation. . . anyways, things are getting into place, work's getting along, hop around boutique at amk hub or wisma isetan, depending on how my schedule goes, and to supplement my income, i took up 2 tuitions. I'm actually getting bored of sales line already, for a short period I found it quite fresh and interesting, but it's really quite mundane and boring. Shopping in a nice place and working there is totally different, it's better shopping than looking at people shop. Next week will be working at amk hub's boutique, full shift 11-10pm on mon n tue..-.- scare, never work full shift before, moreover at boutique, hope James(boss) get someone more senior to help me open shop.
This holiday has been so long too long maybe, I'm yearning to study, go to University, meet people, make friends, get attached . . . But guess this is good time to spend with my mum, sometimes looking at her greying hairs make me so afraid that times together won't be long(touch wood!), so whenever I don't have to work I'll stay at home to accompany her. She has stopped working because of arthrithis, so she's at home alone at home most of the time, think she feels bored too.
yawn, gotta zzz le, tired le.=)
I really really thank God for the peace at home-I'm so sure it's Him who helped make my family better,it's a long story-, but at the same time, I got very selfish, I don't want to leave this peaceful home, my mum. Going to work and church seems to get harder and harder, because I don't know which day when I wake up all this will peace will disappear. Finally we are behaving more like a family, I don't want to revert to the past state, I held on to God 'cause I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I backslide I'll lose all these and favors from Man. I'm afraid I won't be able to get into Uni, I'm afraid that one day when I'm older it'll be harder to get back to God, to City Harvest, to have my cg members being my cg leader. Couldn't take that. But I've ceased praying n reading the bible for months, I hate to go for prayer meetings 'cause I have no faith in whatever I say, it's just mere words that I'm uttering, I drag myself to church 'cause I no longer find joy in going, nor singing words that I don't feel in my heart, it makes me feel like a hypocrite. Hope everything will get better . . .

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