Social Parasite

Monday, December 19, 2005

i juz bought a new pair of shoes yesterday, finally!..my old nike sport shoes was like so torn and tattered and dirty already so i really need a new shoe so seriously it's a need, nt a want..anyway i was pretty happy until when i get to the counter and wanted to pay for my brand new converse shoe.. as ususl i took out my NETS (NETS it!) and pressed my pin no and guess wat? ya, transection declined!..but i tht maybe i press the pin wrongly so i tried again and it transection declined AgaiN.. Nvm i tht, i told the uncle i'll go draw the money instead, and i jumped queue unknowingly, and was told my one malay auntie " gal, have to queue huh" *embarrassed* but nvm, i got into the correct "queueing point" and waited IMPATIENTLY for my turn... after a little waiting, i got to the ATM and a tht struck me, perhaps i don have any money left already.. so instead of drawing, i checked my acc balance instead.. and guess wat? Bingo! i left on 30+ in my acc.. from $3000+ to the present $30+.. oh my goodness.. i almost cried k, first time i haven got any money left in my acc.. (hey, wat's tt tht running thru ur mind??!... i'm not a spendthrift k, i splurge OCCASSIONALLY, but even den i don spend more den a $100!) i tink my money is everywhere, juz not wid me.. but thank God, i rather be a creditor den a debtor for the bible says, "u shall lend to many nations, but u shall not borrow.." but in the end audrey had to pay for me coz my shoes are already at the counter.. thx so much audrey!! *huggies* no worries, i'll pay her baq asap when my pay cheque get cashed into my acc..

wat God spoke to me at nite:

bg info: i got upset wid God ( I'm so sorry, i've since repented..) coz i kept sowing and sowing but i don seem to be reaping and i'm getting poorer and poorer day by day till yest when i don even have money to pay for my shoes..

at nite when i was doing my quiet time ( a little relunctantly), a little voice juz spoke to me: hey, do u not noe tt a seed takes time to grow and it takes time again for the flowers to bloom and again it takes time for the flower to wither before u can collect in ur fruits.. -as long as the earth remains, seed time and harvest shall nv pass away- wld u rather forsake God and have ur little money now and be LIMITEDLY rich , or wld u rather keep ur faith and trust in Him, His character and His promises? God can gif u the ability to get wealth, y do u worry?.. hey, do not be deceived, for God is not mocked... trust in His heart when u don see His hands... for wat gd does it benefit u if u leave Him?... if u leave harden ur heart and leave Him, u get into bondage wid Satan again ( a scene flashed thru my mind whereby i was held like a hostage by Satan, wid a triumphant grin flashing across his face) , u were plundered from hell, do u wan to walk baq into hell again?.. - sounds like the israelites always yearning for egypt where it's such a bad bad place.. God was so upset by them den, guess i really upset Him yest..-

at tt moment,a mixture of feelings, emotions juz overwhelmed me.. i felt so so so so bad tt i really wanted to cry, but at the same time i felt happy and loved, coz God He cares, i believe it's God speaking to me and encouraging me to keep my faith.. really thank Him tt he saved me from being deceived by Satan.. praise be unto Him.. *huggiez*

btw, i'm poor partly also becoz of poor management of finances.. need to work on tt i guess..hee =)

precious_memo@11:39 AM
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